Another Boy. . .

It's been so long from the last moment in 2011...

I got a beautiful moment in the last year. Actually not in the last year, maybe 2011 is the best year ever in my life. first, I found a boy who has a special ability (maybe talent). second, I found a song which is so great to hear. third, the boy who has a special ability taught me how to play the song on the keyboard/piano. Well, it seems like a miracle, because I found a boy who has a talent. For me, found a boy who can play a piano is like I found peace. And one again, he likes to sing, and exactly his voices so good. And I believe, if he sings a song, his voices will colour your soul. Especially, when he sings You Rise Me Up- Josh Groban.

Actually, I don't wanna write down this. OK, forget it.

I feel like I wanna go back to December. Because, so many things that i can't forget. Especially anniversary of my school. Maybe without the party, I'll never know him and be his friend. When I flashback all the moments in 2011, I remember one thing that really really hard to forget. Yes, it's about R. Because he lights up my life everyday. Although, he never gets closer to me, but he always makes me smile. The only thing which always appear in my mind is his smiles. Hard to explain how much I love him. But now, I realize that he can't love me like the way I do. Day by day, Month by month, I've been trying to forget him but, I can't. Okay, I'm sure I can forget him. Sooner or Later.

In the first month in 2012, I'm tyring to find another way to get my own love. Maybe this is one of my resolutions. I don't want to do the things like before. I have to change it, change my mind, and change all my bad habbits. I really want to make a change for my future. Well, you know I'm trying.

Easy come. Easy go.
Yeah, everyone knows the motto.
Now, I always remember the motto wherever I am. Especially to get my own love.
Well, now I have to think twice before do something. And think the result.

Since I found him. I think I can forget R. But I can't and I will never forget the moment where he always lights up my day. Why I said so?. Because The Boy is not like R. The Boy is a kind person. He always smiles. Always lauhgs. And always talks to me whenever he meets me. So difference behaviour. One again, he is so great to make a sentence in English. Yeah, That's why!. My English teacher also say that he is the "smartest" person in his class.

But there's a bad news. Always and always T_T. Yeah, as a kind person and as a boy who has a special ability, everyone knows him. Well, I've been trying to understand. He smiles to other girl. He laughs when he's w/ his friends. And He talks w/ every girl he met. No exception. Yeah, that's so annoying. I don't know why, there's another feeling deep inside my heart that i can't tell to him. And I don't know how to hide this. I've been trying to stay away from him. But, my friends always call him and talk to him and the end of the conversation is he talks to me. Sometimes, I'm afraid to lose him if he knows what I feel. I've always been hide my feel, and feel so calm whenever he is around me. I don't know why I always nervous, speechless, and the heartbeat so fast whenever he is around me. Is it a LOVE ???. But, I'm sure this is just crush.

I've always been pray to God. And Saying Thank God for what he gave to me.
Well, I'll not tell you who is "him" before i know who's the girl that he loves.
Now, I wanna be so quiet. No matter what. And control my heartbeat whenever he's around me.



-Love doesn't mean to always close . . .