Why? Why he always in my mind? After all this time I never see him again, but still I always think about him. He haunted me. Sometimes, a little memory when I spent a little time with him appear in my mind. And wish that could start over and over again. God, why can't you erase my memories about him. That's too sweet to remember all those memories. When he came and was sitting next to me, I can't forget and always always always remember his scent. Sweet smile, hair style, and his voice... He is totally amazing Man for me.
Gw sempat menemukan pujaan hati lainnya, yang juga menarik perhatian gw. Dan hal ini terjadi gara-gara sebuah seminar. Sempat berpikiran buat move-on saat kenal sama dia, tapi... There's so many reason why. Let me tell you.
His name is Fauzan.
Kece, keren, dan lumayan pinter, dia masuk kelas IPA. And, he can play guitar. But, not piano. Sempat juga spent a little time with him and his friends, dan dia juga udah mengucapkan sebuah kata sama gw "Welcome to My world". Dia bilang begitu pas lagi duduk-duduk santai bareng temen-temennya. Engga tau maksudnya apa, tapi gw anggap biasa aja, walaupun ada sebagian temen gw yang bilang itu adalah sebuah kode. Sempat GR sih, tapi sesaat doang. Hehee...
Kece, keren, dan lumayan pinter, dia masuk kelas IPA. And, he can play guitar. But, not piano. Sempat juga spent a little time with him and his friends, dan dia juga udah mengucapkan sebuah kata sama gw "Welcome to My world". Dia bilang begitu pas lagi duduk-duduk santai bareng temen-temennya. Engga tau maksudnya apa, tapi gw anggap biasa aja, walaupun ada sebagian temen gw yang bilang itu adalah sebuah kode. Sempat GR sih, tapi sesaat doang. Hehee...
Dia sempat berpartisipasi dalam ulang tahun gw yang ke-17. Nulis sebuah ucapan di atas kertas origami warna ungu. That's sweet and I'm thankful to god for this. But that's not as sweetest as what David did on my 16th birthday. Confused...
Sometimes, I talk to Fauzan. Tapi ada sesuatu yang ganjel. Engga tau kenapa, ngobrol sama Fauzan engga senyaman ngobrol sama ka David. Walaupun ngobrol sama Fauzan sama deg-degannya kalo lagi ngobrol sama ka David. Sempat ada harapan. Yaaaa tapii gitu juga... "Harapan Kosong"
So, still. My choice and hope is in David. When all the memories appear, there's a hope that comes up.
Spent a little time with him and his friends. Walking down the streets together.. But he does not care. So different than David.
I do remember all those memories above. I wish and hope I can start it over and over again. David, I hope you hear me . . .
God, make all his dreams come true. I know he's trying to catch his dreams. Don't make him sad, please... Amen.
