Hi everyone, it's been so long since the last post I published. I have so many things in mind to write about, but the time won't let me to because the tight schedules. Do you know what? I have class on the weekend. Again and again. Sounds like Jane's dialogues with Peter in The Amazing Spiderman movie. “You've done this to me, Peter. Again and again" hehehe. Okay, let's go back to the topic I want to write about. This is just my thoughts based on what I saw and experienced. So, as we already know the title... Here it is.
We, humans are social creatures. Everyone does know that. As we grow up, we naturally try to expand and sharpen our skill to a higher level. It is both because our will and condition needs. But how do you do if you are an antisocial or at least are afraid of social interaction? I'm not saying I'm an antisocial, but people’s first impression toward me in new circumstances, mostly they would say at first that I am, and maybe ignorant. But maybe just maybe, the past has formed me to be who I am now. I would rather watch and be passive before entering a new 'world'. To be honest, before I experienced this thing, I was a talkative and an active person, I think I am still now, but depends on the circle. My mom even wondered why am I like this. I mean, she was a person who can easily interact with people and join any activities that consist of many people when she was at my age. Hearing her stories, I was curious about how it would be if I challenge myself to do something I am not interested in. So it is how it went...
I put myself into an organization where the 'team work' is needed in order to achieve the goal. That means, work, think, create, and do everything with each other and also we have to discuss with others before taking the agreement. What I had in mind at that time was, it was a wonderful activity to begin with. Hoping meeting new fun people, and can experience all those good things in mind which is only based from my mother's stories, but like famous quote said, reality is different. Or is it just me? Correct me if I'm wrong. I know, among the stories that my mom shared, there were some bad ones too. But, the way she shared her experiences, I knew that she wanted me to be involved in something like this in order to get the experience. So I did.
What I really see in it was, selfishness and greed. I know people's personalities are varies, but, could not they just deliver something in a good way? They said it was about team work, but how could we say it was when all we had to obey is one person's vote instead of team's? What do we find? What do we get when our voice is heard but it hurts others? For the sake of satisfaction? Satisfaction of being obeyed? Famous? Because we can rule people? I think yes but we do it in a wrong way. Is it because we are experienced enough in it? And seeing what people do is always wrong and we are right? Is it? I am not talking about nonsense. It did happen. The next story I experienced has the same story line which makes me losing my interest in something like this. It even got worse. You know, the smirk they put on their face, seeing me working like I am their meal. I mean, hey I am new here, and I am still trying. Would you just guide me instead of setting your face like that? Everyone has their own best skill, you do and I do. Yes we do. I will not say people are stupid just because they cannot do any particular thing, because I believe they have their own passion which is their best skill.
Maybe a different story would come if I gave another shot at a new one, but I was so reluctant to do so. Just take an assumption, these two cases that I had been in are the sample of three ones. Where the third ones is the good ones. Correct me if I am wrong. So, the chance of me getting the good ones is not that much bigger.
Interact with kind of people like this really stresses me out, that is why I avoid involving myself in the same zone. I know we are all different to one another which is the absolute thing to distinguish us, but I completely lose my mind about something like this and it is so hard to deal with it. Maybe you too, cannot deal with a human like me hehehe which sometimes I wonder that ‘am I the only kind of my kind?’. Maybe you wish that you will never be met with another person like me who is always complaining about (simple) things which is very usual to happen.
I turned to be passive is not really because I am so reluctant to socialize, but it is rather to lessen the stress if this kind of people appear outside that zone by watching them first before I interact with them like, do they have these signs which could be categorized as 'people I want to avoid'? Maybe I have to interact with them as often as possible so I will be accustomed to it, but once again, it stresses me out.
I wrote about junk story again I know, but thank you for your visit. Thank you! May you have a wonderful life!