Hi bloggy, cannot believe it is the last day of 2017. Many things happened of course. I am glad this one fine year happened.
New year is about to come. Same like many people and tv shows, I just want to take a look back to what has happened during this year. But, I think I will share it just a bit because I do not have much time to write due to the deadlines of my papers hehehe.
I just discovered that, it seems that I have lived in the present for the past two years. I just do not know how and why, but this fact is found from my analysis. I found the fact that, in the previous year, especially in 2014 and 2015, I was still thinking about the past. I had always blamed myself for letting the things happen. I mean, I was so hard to deal with the past. The question 'why did it happen?', 'what would happen if I did this instead of this?', and so many why questions that go unanswered. I also had always complained about the things that had not supposed to be. Maybe, just maybe, I was still at the age of 18/19 at that time hehehe. Or is it because someone else? Hehe ☺ I do not know, and who knows?
He, who is one of the persons whom I want to thank to for turning it all around, making me feel much better person by living in the present. This thing is just easily make me forget about that bleak moments in my life. Even though I know that I may not know him well, because I have not talked to him yet, at least there is someone whose presence and silence really means a lot to me. He is the one who causes palpitation yet creates smile on my face. He is the one who makes me grateful for letting that bad moments happen to my life, because it leads me to him. And if maybe (I wish this will not become true) in the end I am not with him, I will still thank to him for giving me that courage to live in the present and easily stand up for the brand new life.
In life, we will get balance in most aspects. If there is sadness and then God will give us happiness, if God creates cry, then laughter will come, and if sorrow happens, joy will be there to heal it. But why is it taking too long to wait the positive things to happen? If this question went through your mind, all I can say is, it is about time. I have just remembered a famous quote that says 'time almost heal everything'. I kind of believe in that quote. Just live it as it is supposed to be, in the future, maybe we will feel grateful because these -sorrows- in the end will form us to be someone who is stronger that we have ever imagined.
Maybe we have to live this life with sincere heart, thus, it will be much easier to face the challenges ahead and deal with something that we do not expect to happen.
For you, my kindhearted summer rose who turned it all around, maybe just maybe you read this. I want to thank you for everything you did. I do not even know how, but you just did it. You are the one who makes me live in the present. It is going to one and half years more since 'it' began to grow, but pathetically, I still do not have any courage to express it to -at least have conversations with- you in person.
And for you my readers, happy new year! May the brand you year will bring joy and happiness, and form us to be a much better person.
Here is my favorite lines of the song from my favorite band. Maybe you will like it too.
“Let's hang on to the moment we're in. Of all the things we will remember, the good the bad and the blessings in disguise. Today will stick with me forever, even if we have to say goodbye[…] […]we're too young to get lost looking back. Life doesn't always give us answer, some dots they won't connect until the years go by” -Where Does the Time Go, by A Great Big World.
Do not ask how did I take this picture below, all I remember is, I was a t-rex having a stroke while taking the picture hehehe 😊
“If we're not meant to be together, someday we'll know the reasons why”
-Where Does the Time Go by A Great Big World.