Show Time!

Hi, today’s class is closed. And I kinda hate that. If you know what I mean.

Last night, I promised myself, if the lecturers announce that the class will be closed, I will post something to this blog. And they did.

If you see my tweet almost a week ago, I tweeted something that I will be performing some performances in auditorium. Yes, after all this time, I finally faced the stage again. Not really stage. I wished that it would be on stage, but they put me on the corner of the room. What kind of performance? No, it’s not dance, but it’s a musical performance. Yessss, I was playing the piano again on a show.

You know the feeling right, when you finally do your passion again after so long? Wait, it was not piano. Well, I was a bit disappointed. Why? The committee said that the baby grand piano could be used on the final day, but the fact hmmm. I mean, if they at least say they cannot guarantee… hhmmm just forget it. At the end, I finally used the digital piano of the choir organization. It was Yamaha DGX, but I forgot the number of the DGX. The problem did not stop there. There was a problem with the external sustain pedal which made me had to play without the sound of sustain. But, thank God, the reverb covered the unsustained sound. The size of the keys was also a problem. It does not have graded hammer system. But overall, I like the sound of that digital piano. It has very touchable sound. I mean, yes, the bass is more dominated than the treble.

So, what song did I play? Yes, still the gorgeous song from Yiruma. It was River Flows In You. Why did I play that? You know, as the first performance of mine in my college, I just wanna impress everybody in that room with my playing even though I play it everyday, and many of you maybe get bored because I do not have any new song. Another thing was, I thought that that song is famous enough for everybody in that room-even the lecturers, so I would not leave everyone wondering with my playing like “whose song is this? What’s the title?” and so on. Another reason is, because I already mastered its chords hehehe… not to boast, but I just wanted to avoid the forgetfulness during my play. You know, that four-chord-changing is already out of my brain hehehe…

The second song was My Love by Westlife as usual, and the last was a song from the local artist of my country. But the last song, I did not sing it. I just accompanied my friend to sing it. That was not a performance that I expected, because I expected more. I did not know why, but I think they should have done it better on the sound system, so my friend and I could shake that audience with our performance. By the way, I feel honored, because the lecturer asked me to accompany them singing a song. The song was Let It Be by The Beatles. The feeling when the audience sang along with you and the lecturers was something! I've never experienced it. I think I got goosebumps at that time.

I still cannot give you the video of me playing that, because the committees have not shared it yet. But I just found out a picture of me which has so-annoying face, and I think awkward.

credit to the committee

My hope for the next performance is, at least the committee will say if they cannot provide the instrument, I will find out how to bring mine to the college. I believe I and my friend can do better than this one. And I hope, I can give another performance again with my friend on the next event. Wait, I wish that Annual Awards of the Faculty will be held this year, and I wish we can be there again! It is not about the pride, but it is about the feeling when I am in a backstage waiting for my turn to perform. It is never any other!

What's on Mind.

I'm sorry for not writting to this blog of mine. *skip this*. I've been so busy lately like OMG I think I broke my bone. It's suck a risk to live in the city with extreme traffic. I know that. You have to sacrifice everything to gain something good.

I don't know how long I should wait for it, but with all my heart, I've believed it since the first time I built this dream.

NY, still the reason why I live my life for. I don't know why, and if I could gain so much energy I would take some courses for dancing in another place. And I still like watching theater or some musical dance, it will open your mind wider. I don't know, though the price of the ticket is more expensive rather than watching movie in cinema LOL. But sometimes, if you're lucky, the price of the ticket is zero! Yes I mean free! You just have to open your heart to watch it without any inconvenience feeling, I mean, you do it not because someone ask you to. I don't know what an impact it would be if you watch it, but for me, it's such an inspiration to live my life. You will learn something from the show right after you watch it. To be honest, I only came to the cinema once. And I did because my father asked me to, it happened when I was on six grade. After that, I never go to cinema anymore until now. I really like to watch something like this. I don't know why, but when the lights turned off, and the curtains opened, I saw the stage and it was like “goddamn, that's the place where I am supposed to be” I felt like there's unseen energy filled my whole body and at that time I felt like I'm invincible OMG! When I was on stage, and though the show was over, I played that piano and I felt like “I'm Queen of the World” OMG •forget it•

          

          

          

                   

“Photos by me. Location: Teater Besar, Taman Ismail Marzuki. Show: Penghargaan Kebudayaan 2015, Sept 22nd 2015.”

          

          

          

          

This is the rarest thing I've ever done. I bravely asked to take a selfie with Minister of Education and Culture :D

“Photos by me. Location: Gedung Kesenian Jakarta (Jakarta Art Building) Show: Penetapan Warisan Budaya Tahun 2015, Oct 20th 2015.”

If you don't know her (picture number 3, 4, 6, and 7) go find out, she may bring you some inspirations. Trust me.

It's close enough when I hear or maybe see “NY” word. I feel like I can do everything that I want to do. Like what Shane Filan said “don't waste your days looking at the clock”. Your life is too precious to be given something unspecial. There are a lot of colors in this world, but it depends on how you do, make and take it. If you're not moving, the scale will be the same as the first time it set up. You may see the world in your hand, but the real world, we're not there yet. Always there's a “rainbow” after “cloudy” and even “rain”. Just believe it. Pray and try!

Mudik Singkat.

Minggu, 27 Juli sore gue berangkat nih ke bogor. Biasalah ke rumah nenek gue. Sampainya disana malemnya baca doa gitu buat nyambut hari raya besok.

Besokannya, gue sama kelurga gue yang lain sholat ied di Masjid deket rumah nenek. Biasanay gue sholatnya di Lapangan Kampus IPB, tapi karena bangun kesiangan jadi yang deket aja gitu hehehe.

Pulangnya gue sama sepupu gue yang lain pada sibuk sama gadgetnya masing-masing. Tapi ada yang engga punya pulsa nih. Ada yang bawa laptop sama tablet tapi engga bisa koneksi internet.

Tada! Untung nih smartphone gue itu Smartfren new andromax i. Gue aktifin tuh yang namanya wifi hotspot portable, ya pastinya terep gue password-in biar aman. Tiap gadget gue yang konekin wi-fi nya biar engga ketauan pass-nya :D Smartfren gue sebelumnya udah gue aktifin paket smartfren connex yang unlimited sebulan. Murah nih cuma 50rb perbulan tapi engga murahan ya :) kita bisa dapetin koneksi yang cepet banget, bahkan sepupu gue yang bawa laptop itu diem-diem update windowsnya yang berukuran 400mb lebih sampai selesai. Ini pasti karena teknologi EVDO rev.A yang 100% setara dengan 3G!
Oiya, yang gue suka dari hp smartfren new andromax i gue ini dilengkapin sama kamera beresolusi 5MP auto fokus dan lengkap dengan flash-nya. Jadi gue seneng kalo ngambil gambar atau apapun dari jarak dekat, gue berasa memakai kamera digital yang canggih dan tentunya mahal hahaha!

Rabu, 30 Juli pagi. Gue, bonyok, adek, dan tante gue mau pergi ke pantai pangandaran. Gue kira itu jalan tol udah sepi, ternyata meeeen macet sampai empat jam baru mau masuk gerbang tol ciawi. Yah, sekedar menikmati perjalan aja deh. Cuma liatin info lalu lintas di twitter. Dan sesekali dengerin dari radio langsung dari hp andromax gue ini.

Setelah lepas keluar dari GT Ciawi, perjalanan berlanjut ke Puncak dan Cianjur. Di Cianjur kira ketemu lagi nih yang namanya m-a-c-e-t π_π Sampai empat jam lagi macetnya. Akhirnya kita berenti dulu di salah satu rumah makan buat makan siang, sambil nunggu macetnya terurai bro. Lumayan kan bisa selonjorin kaki dulu. Udahnya kita cuss lagi nih lanjutin perjalanan. Untungnya niiiiih, gerbang tol cileunyi sepi coy! Padahal sehari sebelumnya masih padat. Keluarnya dari situ langsnung menuju ke arah nagreg. Dan ternyataaaaa di cicalengka macet parah dan katanya sampai cagak nagreg. WOW! Bogor-Bandung di tempuh dalam waktu 12Jam men! Biasanya cuma 3-4 Jam.

Pas di Cicalengka gue mampir dulu ke SPBU buat beli makanan kecil. Soalnya tante gue puasa jadi sekalian buka puasa juga. Cus lagi nih kita. Dan ternyata bener nih, macetnya sampai cagak nagreg bahkan sampe perbatasan kota Tasik T_T. Niatnya berangkat dari rumah dari pagi buta biar sampai pantai Pangandaran sore dan engga terlalu panas mataharinya, eeeehhh ternyata gue nginep di jalan coy! Tapi engga apa apa sih, kalo sampai nanti tengah malem belum nyampe, gue sekeluarga bakal nginep dulu nih di rumah Kakek gue yang tinggal di Banjar.

Oiya nih, gue baru inget! Pas gue liat hp gue, ternyata sinyal-nya penuh nih! Engga ada matinya! Gue kira gue engga bakalan dapet sinyal udah di daerah sini, ternyata gue salah! Dan kerennya lagi, gue engga perlu repot-repot registrasi ulang buat dapetin kode wilayah yang lagi gue singgahi ini :)

Sampai besok pagi akhirnya gue membatalkan untuk pergi ke pantai dan singgah dulu di rumah Kakek gue di Banjar, Jawa barat. Dan keren lagi nih! Sinyal smartfren disini udah ada! Padahal setau gue empat tahun yang lalu, saat hp gue masih smart D1200P (hehehe masih jadul =D) disini belum terjangkau sinyal smartfren. Salut deh sama smartfren! Andromax new I gue ini udah android jelly bean 4.1 jadi gue seneng banget nih bisa download app sosial media Path. Hahahaha

Hal yang sama juga gue lakuin di rumah Kakek gue ini. Mulailah adek adek sepupu gue sibuk nanyain pin bb dan lain sebagainya itu tapi mereka engga ada pulsa alias engga bisa koneksi internet, akhirnya gue mengandalkan fitur wifi hotspot andromax gue lagi nih... =) dan mereka akhirnya senang bisa ber-internet dengan gratis dari gue hahaha.

Tapi waktu gue engga banyak nih, gue dan keluarga gue harus pulang lagi ke Bogor dan tentunya pergi ke Pantai Pangandaran dulu. Itu adalah waktu tersingkat dan pertama kalinya gue ke kampung gue dengan waktu yang sangat sangat singkat. Sampai di Banjar itu jam tujuh pagi, sementara gue berangkat dari Bogor jam enam pagi di hari sebelumnya. Dan jam dua belas siangnya gue kembali melakukan perjalanan menuju ke pantai Pangandaran dan tentunya pulang lagi ke Bogor.

Perjalan ke Pantai Pangandaran pun engga lepas dari yang namanya macet. Kita sampai sana itu sekitar jam lima sore. Dan akhirnya gue engga jadi berenang! π_π cari parkir aja susahnya minta ampun. Dan akhirnya kita cuma parkirin mobil di pinggir jalan, dan turun sebentar ke pantai sekedar foto, dan main pasir. Tapi bokap sama sodara gue berenang sih walau cuma sebentar banget.

Setelah selesai keluar dari pantai Pangandaran kita memutuskan akan pulang lewat tol Cipularang, bukan lewat Puncak lagi.

Sampainya di Bogor, ternyata Tante gue yang dari Australia baru datang! Dan kita pun dimanjakan sama cokelat cokelat dan kacang macadamia yang dia bawa dari sana. Lumayan lah setelah sekian lama perjalanan ‘abadi' itu ditempuh sampainya di rumah langsung disuguhkan sama cemilan dewa itu.

Sekianlah mudik tahun ini. Biasanya gue bisa stay di kampung sampai dua minggu lebih tapi tahun   kurang dari dua belas jam. Hahahaha. Oiya, semoga hasil uang thr lebaran ini bisa buat beli hp smartfren andromax Z! Amiiin 0=)

Cofscone 2014 part I.

Two years ago.
We were nothing.
Met unknown faces.
Unknown names.
Like strangers.
Now. . .
1. Bedul: ketua kelas menjabat dua tahun. Menurut gue cogannya ipa satu. Tapi kalah kece sama cowok inceran gue. Hahahaha. Kalo kata bu lubna mirip pa Ahok. Baik. Kadang pendiem. Sangat sangat manusia yang soleh! Mainnya sama jawa, ahim, and icas terus. Tapi tetep membaur sama yg lain. Semoga sukses dul!
2. Aca: temenan dari kelas satu. Tadinnya duduk berdua sama dia, eh dipindahin sama bu lisbeth. Suka sama bang dimz17 and depapepe. Pendiem. Tapi kalo udah ceritain aria, kayak kereta di depan basecamp. Hahahaha. Semoga cita-cita lu semua terwujud ca!
3. Putra: Pendiem banget. Gamer. Rajin banget bawa laptop tapi cuma buat main game. Sering banget bawa bekel. Pinter fisika. Tapi kalo udah marah serem. Bang genderuwo kalah serem kali. Gue udah takut kalo liat dia marah. Semoga lancar di unbraw put!
4. Dinda Prames: Lucu. Gue seneng kalo denger ketawanya. Sering dijailin sama Ariel atau engga bopak. Kejajaran sama dua orang itu. Baik. Perasa. And selalu senyum! Good luck ya dinda :)
5. Dinda Yolan: Pendiem. Suka protes. Rambutnya panjang. Engga pernah liat dia berambut pendek. Lucu. Sering banget beli indomie. Baik. Sukses dimo :)
6. Ahim: Rocker-nya ipa satu. Keren banget klo udah main gitar listrik. Berasa nonton metalica. Di panggil pa haji sama pa juber. Baik. Pernah duduk sebangku sama dia. Tukang tidur. Kalo jalan dengak sambil ngibas poni. Keep stand up for your music and get the fucked up, bro! Sukses!
7. Icas: sekelas dari kelas satu. Kadang lucu suka ngelawak. Mirip vidi aldiano sama pembawa acara brownies di trans7. Pinter. Anak futsal. And punya kaka badai bingit. Hehehehe sukses yee cas!
8. Jawa: jarang ngomong sama dia. Cuma (kayaknya) sekali doang karna baca pantun berdua pas pelajaran bu arlina. Suaranya lucu. Sering cabut (menurut absen). Yah gitulah. Pacarnya adek kelas. Sukses juga yeee, jawaa.
9. Aje: sekelas dari kelas satu. Pertama kenal karna ngajak pulang bareng pas mos. Hahahaha. Paling suka nawar kalo lagi belanja. Pendiem tapi pinternya lebih dari gue. Hehehe...Semoga anda sukses buu Ajee!
10. Isma: Ibu-nya ipa satu. Karna paling tua. Omongannya just like mario teguh. Paling dicari kalo seorang cofsconer butuh kata² bijak. Hehehe semoga sukses yaaa, Ma kuliahnya!
11. Bella: the girl who loves secondhand serenade. Maybe not that much. But she has always watched his gigs on JakCloth. Kalo kata nyokap gue mirip banget sama kakak sepupu gue. Pinter. Bahkan pinteran dia daripada gue. Hehehe. Wish you luck and prettier, Bell!
12. Bayu: Truly pak Haji-nya cofscone. Bodyguard setianya pak juber walau pak juber sendiri yaaaa begitu deh. A smarter man than me. Mungkin dia hafal 30juz Al-Qur'an. Hehehe. Sukses yak, Bayu.
13. Yuli: dipanggil neng. Bukan neng zaskia gotik tapi yak. Kalo main gitar pasti yang di mainin lagu Your Call-nya John vesely. Baik. Pernah beli binder warna abu² sama my crush. Yes gue inget sangat. Dulu sering gue pinjem bb-nya buat liatin PM-nya kakak kelas itu. Hehehe, sukses yaa yul kuliahnyaaa.
14. Daffa: bukan daffa-nya sri si onye ongol² yak. Sangat pendiem. Kelas 3 sebangku sama gue. Tapi gue mungkin 95% engga pernah menyinggahi bangku sebelah daffa. Hehehe sorry yak. There's one thing that I can't tell to you guys. I'm sure you know what it is. Hp-nya sering dipinjem sama andi buat denger lagu sampe low. Sukses yaaa daffa di jerman.
15. Andi: pernah berantem sama emak because something. Dan nyuruh gue ke rumah emak buat belain. Dan untung emak sangat percaya. Padahal gue yaaa gituu Wkwkwk. Kalo bukan krn pelajaran gue engga mau panas²an berjam² naik motor ke tangerang ♦_♦. Sukses ndii. Semoga bisa beli drum satu set. Jangan ibanez, pearl dong!
16. Ikah: ibu ketar. Ketua Arisan. Kenal dari kelas satu walopun engga sekelas lewat perantara christin ipa 2. Kadang bawel. Pinter mtk-nya. Serius dah. Liatin aja nilai-nya. Kalo di bis ngobrolnya paling keras (menurut gue). Suka berangkat bareng karna ketemu di terminal. Parfumnya paling semerbak di kelas. Sumpah kah. Hehehe. Jangan galau mulu yesh. Suksees yaa kaaah..

This is not the end of the post. Please wait just for a few days. :)

Yang belum ada di daftar. Nunggu part II yaaa.. My fingers are tired. But, I don't wanna miss write something about you guys. Note, this post just for remind me of you guys. And this post is based on what I saw and felt about you guys. Please don't be angry. And feel free if you wanna leave a comment. Thank you, guys for the visit. May God bless us always. And see you at the top! ♥♥♥

Shane Filan - Everything To Me Lyrics

Verse 1

If life was like a jigsaw, where would you start?
You think you’ve got the picture like it’s written on your heart
You lay out all the pieces, one by one
But if you stare at it too closely, the answer never comes
 

So I take a breath cos I need time to figure this all out
I got lost inside what I thought I need but I understand now.
 
[Chorus]

Cos I don’t need the sunlight shining on my face
And I don’t need perfection to have the perfect day
I just want to see you happy, a smile on your face
Nothing else matters
Cos you’re everything to me, to me, to me
You’re everything to me
 
Verse 2

Can you tell me where I’m going? Tell me what comes next
Cos I know that it’s not over, haven’t even started yet
I just want to get there but I hope it’s not too late
Cos the closer that I’m getting, the more I feel the weight
 
Let’s take a breath, take our time to figure this all out
I got lost inside what I thought I need but I understand now.
 
[Chorus]

Cos I don’t need the sunlight shining on my face
And I don’t need perfection to have the perfect day
I just want to see you happy, a smile on your face
Nothing else matters
Cos you’re everything to me
 
[Bridge]

All that I thought I want is not what I really need
You’re right here front of me
 
No I don’t need the sunlight shining on my face
And I don’t need perfection to have the perfect day
I just want to see you happy, a smile on your face
Nothing else matters. No, nothing else matters
 
Cos I don’t need the sunlight shining on my face
And I don’t need perfection to have the perfect day
I just want to see you happy, a smile on your face
Nothing else matters. No, nothing else matters
 
Yeah I don’t need the sunlight shining on my face
And I don’t need perfection to have the perfect day
I just want to see you happy, a smile on your face
Nothing else matters. No, nothing else matters
Cos you’re everything to me, to me, to me
You’re everything to me

Shane Filan - Once Chords

This is my first tab. I did and found this just by hearing and helped by the keyboard and guitar. So, I'm sorry if there is a mistake. Thanks for your consideration :)

Verse 1

G                                     D

We worry about work, worry about money

                     Em                C
worry if the punch line’s funny

G                         D                    C
We worry if the sky is gonna fall

G                                         D
We worry about winning, worry about losing

Em                                            C
Worry about the roads we’re choosing

G                           D                             C
We worry if that someone’s gonna call

        C             Em
We spend so much precious time tryna 

D

Figure out

                  C                           Em

What this crazy maze of a beautiful world 

D

Is all about

[Chorus]

                   C                      G

So kick on back, fill your cup

             Em                                          D
Put on your favourite song, turn it up

            C                      G                    D
Find a little peace of mind in the sunshine

                                C                               G
Don’t waste your days looking at the clock

          Em                                      D
Say i love you to the ones you got

                        C                 G
Don’t leave a lifetime of rights

                   D
on the wrong side

                                G        D     C
‘Cos you only live once, once, once

                       G        D        G
you only live once, once, once

Verse 2

                             G                                      D

We worry about truths, we worry about lying

                                       Em              C
We worry about how much we’re trying and

                G                 D                  C
When it’s all gonna come to an end

We spend so much precious time tryna figure out
What this crazy maze of a beautiful world is all about

[Chorus]

So kick on back, fill your cup
Put on your favourite song, turn it up
Find a little peace of mind in the sunshine
Don't waste your days looking at the clock
Say i love you to the ones you got
Don’t leave a lifetime of rights
on the wrong side

                                G        D        Em    C

‘Cos you only live once, once, once

                       G        D       C         D
you only live once, once, once

D

Oh oh

C       G         D
once, once, once

So kick on back, fill your cup
Put on your favourite song, turn it up
Find a little peace of mind in the sunshine yeah
Don’t waste your days looking at the clock
Say i love you to the ones you got
Don’t leave a lifetime of rights
on the wrong side yeah
‘Cos you only live once, once, once
you only live once, once, once

Yeah you only live once, once, once
You only live once, once, once

Choice.

Why? Why he always in my mind? After all this time I never see him again, but still I always think about him. He haunted me. Sometimes, a little memory when I spent a little time with him appear in my mind. And wish that could start over and over again. God, why can't you erase my memories about him. That's too sweet to remember all those memories. When he came and was sitting next to me, I can't forget and always always always remember his  scent. Sweet smile, hair style, and his voice... He is totally amazing Man for me.

Gw sempat menemukan pujaan hati lainnya, yang juga menarik perhatian gw. Dan hal ini terjadi gara-gara sebuah seminar. Sempat berpikiran buat move-on saat kenal sama dia, tapi... There's so many reason why. Let me tell you.

His name is Fauzan.
Kece, keren, dan lumayan pinter, dia masuk kelas IPA. And, he can play guitar. But, not piano. Sempat juga spent a little time with him and his friends, dan dia juga udah mengucapkan sebuah kata sama gw "Welcome to My world". Dia bilang begitu pas lagi duduk-duduk santai bareng temen-temennya. Engga tau maksudnya apa, tapi gw anggap biasa aja, walaupun ada sebagian temen gw yang bilang itu adalah sebuah kode. Sempat GR sih, tapi sesaat doang. Hehee...

Dia sempat berpartisipasi dalam ulang tahun gw yang ke-17. Nulis sebuah ucapan di atas kertas origami warna ungu. That's sweet and I'm thankful to god for this. But that's not as sweetest as what David did on my 16th birthday. Confused...

Sometimes, I talk to Fauzan. Tapi ada sesuatu yang ganjel. Engga tau kenapa, ngobrol sama Fauzan engga senyaman ngobrol sama ka David. Walaupun ngobrol sama Fauzan sama deg-degannya kalo lagi ngobrol sama ka David. Sempat ada harapan. Yaaaa tapii gitu juga... "Harapan Kosong"

So, still. My choice and hope is in David. When all the memories appear, there's a hope that comes up.

Spent a little time with him and his friends. Walking down the streets together.. But he does not care. So different than David.

I do remember all those memories above. I wish and hope I can start it over and over again. David, I hope you hear me . . .

God, make all his dreams come true. I know he's trying to catch his dreams. Don't make him sad, please... Amen.

Togetherness. . .

A year ago. . .

A year ago.

When I was the part of the choir.

Satu tahun yang lalu pas dia masuk ke kelas gw, buat minta izin ke guru yang sedang mengajar di kelas gw bahwa gw dipilih untuk mengiringi anggota paduan suara pada saat acara wisuda angkatan 2012. Serentak seluruh anak di kelas men-cie-ciekan gw. Guru yang sedang mengajarpun tau, kalo gw suka sama dia. Guru itu cuma senyum-senyum ke gw. Walaupun pada akhirnya yang main keyboard-nya bukan gw, tapi gw tetap diikutsertakan menjadi anggota padus tersebut, dan gw mengundurkan diri untuk tampil sebagai salah satu anggota saman. Hanya untuk jadi anggota padus. Bareng dia.

Hari-hari latihan padus pun selalu bareng dia. Seeing him was singing and teaching how to sing to the others. Latihan hari rabu itu terbilang lama. Mungkin sampai sore hari. Saat itu dia sedang ada ulangan Pkn. Dia bilang: Sara, sebentar ya gw tinggal dulu. Gw ada ulangan pkn, engga lama kok. Pada saat itu jam kelasan gw kosong dan hanya gw dan dua temen gw di ruangan kelas itu, jadi gw stay sebentar di lantai empat itu buat latihan.

Selesainya dia ulangan, gw liat dia mengantongi sebuah pulpen. The color was blue. Dia menyambung lagi latihan yang udah dikasih tadi, tapi karena saat itu dia sedang mengikuti sebuah kompetisi akhirnya dia bilang: Gw balik duluan ya, gw harus jam empat sampai di GOR. Sebelum dia meninggalkan gw beserta dua temen gw, dia bertanya: Ini pulpen siapa ya? (sambil mengeluarkan pulpen yang dimaksud). Gw dan temen gw pun menjawab engga tau. Tiba-tiba dia menaruhnya dekat keyboard. Dan setelah itu dia keluar dari ruangan itu. Tanpa mengambil lagi pulpen tadi.

Sekarang, Pulpennya masih gw simpen. Gw menganggap itu punya dia. Dan sekarang pun masih gw simpen rapi. No one can touch that pen. If I miss him I just stare at that pen, and automatically the memories appear in my head. Maybe you think I’m crazy, but I bet my pet, you’ll do the same if you are falling in love with someone. You’ll see.

Ketika wisuda tiba. . .

Mata gw memandangi satu persatu orang yang ada dalam gedung tersebut, tapi gw engga nemuin apa yang gw cari. Terlambat. Ya, dia terlambat datang ke acara itu. Akhirnya, pengiring pun diganti oleh guru kesenian yang pada saat itu dia adalah guru baru di sekolah gw. Ketika kurang lebih 15 menit acara berlangsung dan anggota padus sedang bernyanyi, dia datang. Gw melihat dia melewati barisan kursi belakang dimana para orang tua murid duduk. Kira-kira berjarak lima meter dari gw, gw langsung berpura-pura melihat teks lagu yang sedang gw pegang. Dan……….. dia berdiri di sebelah gw yang pada saat itu gw baris di barisan paling luar. Sambi bernyanyi, dia bertanya sama gw: Udah telat ya? Gw hanya menjawab: Belum lama kok, ka. Setelah itu dia melewati barisan belakang anggota padus dan menghampiri guru yang sedang bermain keyboard itu. I do still remember what he was wearing on that graduation party. He was wearing a white shirt and jeans with a pair of his green sneakers. Mesmerizing me.

Saat bernyanyi pun, gw hanya melihat kearah dia. Seeing him and his pretty finger was playing that keyboard. Sometime, he looked so confused. Maybe he tried to remember the chords of the song. Maybe.

Lama banget buat anak padus untuk bernyanyi tanpa jeda saat puncak acara berlangsung. Ketika udah selesai anggota padus pun mendapatkan konsumsi untuk makan siang. But, where was him? I didn’t see him. Dia pun menghilang dari pandangan gw lagi. Gw pun terus membagikan makan siang itu ke kakak-kakak kelas yang sedang duduk di tempat mereka. Ketika selesai, gw engga langsung menyamber makanan yang ada di kotak itu. Hanya gw melihat ada apa aja yang bisa gw makan, tapi setelah gw liat, gw sama sekali engga tertarik buat makan itu semua. Mungkin karena gw udah menghabiskan dua roti dan sebuah susu kotak, makanya gw kenyang. Kotak makanan itu pun hanya gw pegangin di atas pangkuan gw. Tiba-tiba dia datang lagi.

--Dia langsung menanyakan: Masih ada lagi engga? Gw belum dapet nih. Gw pun menjawab: Yah, udah abis kak. Tadi kita dibagiin sama guru... Gw langsung berpikiran untuk memberi makanan gw dan akhirnya gw menyodorkan makanan gw ke dia. ”Nih ka, ambil aja punya aku. Aku udah kenyang kok kak”. Dia: Engga usah, buat kamu aja. Gw nyari lagi aja. Gw: Engga usah kak, seriusan ini, sama aku engga aku makan, soalnya tadi aku udah makan roti. Dia: Serius nih engga apa-apa?. Gw: Iya, engga apa-apa kok kak. Dari pada engga aku makan, kan mubazir. Dia: Yaudah, makasih ya...—

When I gave him my lunch when he has nothing to eat. And he received it. That made me overwhelmed. Entah kenapa seneng banget pas dia terima jatah makan gw itu. Setelah itu dia menghilang lagi. I didn’t know. Maybe he joined with his friends.

Setelah acara selesai, ada beberapa anggota padus yang stay sebentar di gedung itu. Pada saat itu semua anggota padus menggunakan seragam putih abu-abu. Tiba-tiba dia menghampiri gw dan bertanya: Sara, engga ganti baju?. Gw spontan menjawab: Engga kak, aku engga bawa ganti (sambil senyum kayak orang gila). Gw langsung berpikiran, how stupid I am. On that situation I didn’t bring another shirt. I didn’t understand what he meant. But, I thought he was care about me. I don’t care what you think about this. But I thought he showed that he was care… … …

Setelah berlama-lama bermain dengan keyboard itu dan nyanyi bareng anak-anak yang lain, gw pun memutuskan untuk pulang bareng temen gw. Sebelum pulang gw berpamitan sama anak-anak yang lain yang masih stay di sana dan pamit juga ke dia. Kira-kira udah sepuluh langkah gw jalan, tiba-tiba dia memainkan lagu favorit gw dengan keyboard itu. River Flows In You. Yeah… It made me shocked. I felt like he knew that it was my favorite song. Suddenly gw menoleh kearah dia, dan tiba-tiba dia juga melihat kearah gw lalu dia tersenyum. Gw pun membalas senyum dia dengan rasa bertanya-tanya… Sampai sekarang pun gw masih engga ngerti apa maksudnya dia… Can somebody help me to solve my question??? It was just like a drama, you know. And I always wish it was real… real… real… Maybe god has a good plan for me.

Satu tahun yang lalu. Dan beda suasananya dengan hari kemarin dia wisuda. Bahkan gw engga sempet berfoto berdua sama dia di hari terakhir angkatan dia sekolah. He looked so nice in a black long-shirt with a tie. Nice. Nice. Nice… And I don’t even talk to him even just to say hi or hello… I hate myself. When everybody took a pict with him but I just stood and stared like a stupid girl and let everything gone away. Maybe in another time and day I can do… I was just not brave enough to asked him…

God, please make all his dreams come true. I wanna see him happy. Don’t make him sad or disappointed. I wanna see him success someday, so I can see his sweet smile… Maybe five or ten years later…

Wish Us Luck.

YaAllah, terimakasih karena telah memperkenalkan saya kepada manusia seperti dia. Seorang kakak kelas yang baiknya kelewatan sama adek kelasnya. Seorang kakak kelas yang selalu tersenyum. Seorang kakak kelas yang mengajarkan saya sesuatu yang saya engga bisa kerjain. Seorang kakak kelas yang membuka mata saya bahwa "engga ada istilah senior galak sama junior". Seorang kakak kelas yang mengajarkan bagaimana cara bernyanyi yang benar, cara bermain piano yang benar dan mengajarkan lagu favorit saya. Seorang kakak kelas yang hanya mungkin ada 1:6 milyar orang di dunia ini.

Dear David,

May you come here as a pilot and share the experience with me.

May all your dreams come true.

Don't ever erase our memories.

Don't ever forget our moment when you were a student.

And don't ever give up.

Just got this. And maybe this is the last.

Masa Orientasi Siswa

kayaknya telat yak???
hehehehehehe, maklumlah baru kepikiran buat nge-post ini....

pas MOS berlangsung gw dianterin nyokap, maklumlah gw belum tau jalan..
makanya gw bisa take all this pic ini...

sekolahnya dilihat dari gedung udah menampilkan kesan yang baik, jadi gw yakin ke dalemnya juga baik..

seneng banget gw bisa lolos ke SMA 24 ini, gw ngerasa banyak yang lucu n aneh aneh di sini..
terlihat pas gw lagi daftar ulang untuk verifikasi data, guru-gurunya gokil semua... dari yg perempuan sampe yg laki-laki, paada becanda mulu sama muridnya.... pertama kali orang yang gw temuin adalah ka Bayu.. alias ketua osis gw... jadi sampe sekarang orang yang gw rasa deket banget itu ka bayu... yah, walopun ka Bayu sendiri engga terlalu deket ke gw... (arti deket disini didefinisikan untuk deket sebagai murid, bukan sebagai orang yg kesemsem)

pas, lagi upacara gw masih asing sama anak-anaknya... yeah, karna baru pertama kali tatap muka sama mereka... ada beberapa yang engga asing bagi gw 1. niya 2. viki 3. zaki..
yeah gw merasa engga asing sama mereka, karna pas verifikasi data gw udah ketemu sama mereka.... walaupun pas verifikasi gw belum kenal sama mereka.... (kecuali niya karna niya itu saudara ketemu gw... ??)

pas pulang sekolahnya, kelas gw belom boleh pulang..... karna harus latihan upacara buat penutupan upacara MOPDB hari berikutnya... yeah, anak2 yang engga kebagian jadi narator ato protokol sisanya dijadiin anak2 padus.... yang jadi dirijennya Sekar... dan yang lainnya nyanyi deh.... huhuhu.......... dan disaat itu lah kelas gw untuk pertama kalinya harus menyanyikan lagu MARS 24..... gila!! satupun dari kita belom ada yg hafal.... yah teksnya sih kita bisa baca, tapi melodi nada suaranya itu loh.... hohoho.... makanya kita latihan ampe sore.... dan saat itulah pertama kalinya gw sekolah sampe sore....... biasanya gw sekolah cuma sampe jam satu -_-

yah, pada saat MOS ini gw sama sekali baru kenal ka Radit... jadi belum terlalu tergila-gila... so, gw masih nyantai dan lugu banget... T_T
hahahahahahahahaha

oke itu adalah cerita singkat tentang masa MOS gw... yang dituangkan dalam mode cerpen ditambah dengan foto-foto yang ada.... karna keterbatasan waktu, tempat dan memory (?) gw cuma dapet fotonya 1-4 foto... padahal keren bgt kalo setiap harinya bisa gw foto... -_-

yasyudahlah ceritanya ini sengaja di post hanya sekedar untuk share aja, jadi harap maklulm... oke???
thanks for visit ya :)

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again, shane's photo... i love him

what do you think?

i hope i get his signature.. OH GOD!!!!