What Have Gone Through

          Hello, guys! It has been a loooooong time. I actually wanted to write since a month ago, but I just do not know why I was so lazy to do it. The weather was the reason I guess. I felt that turning on this laptop or PC could increase the temperature. Moreover, the sun does not give the rain a chance to meet earth these days. Well well, poor earth. I think the earth has been really thirsty lately. Uhm anyway, I have just finished my undergraduate program. Yes, exactly a month ago. However, I have not graduated officially with ceremony. In another word, I have not gotten my official certificate yet. So, in my really spare time, waiting to be called for the interview, I would like to write something to this blog of mine. Yeah, something that is still part of my life around (of course, what else?).

          To begin with, I would like to write appreciation paragraph for my lecturers who have helped me during my study. Well, even though I know the chance of them to really visit, come, and read this blog is nearly impossible. I remembered the last thesis defence I faced. In that moment, I was asked whether I have something to say about. I, stupidly, said something in a really short sentence which sounded so “not a really grateful student” ahahaha. My dear lecturers please trust me that, I actually already prepared for that ten-minute-thank-you speech. But, standing alone in front of the class, while the moment was so damn formal, the speech had just gone to somewhere I do not even know where. So let me redo it again in here. Thank you for being the hero for this girl. A girl who is so obsessed with knowledge but is too lazy to explore. You have done a great job, a noble job ever (in my point of view). You all are the ones who ever really truly with sincere heart acknowledged something I have inside this brain. I truly cannot thank you all enough. You all are the key of future. Most of all, you all are so brave, having that courage to take the responsibility of making other people’s children smart. Well, not only did you make people smart, but also guided them to have appropriate manner. Maybe that is all I can say. I should have something more, but I am out of words. In essence, thank you for being a really good figure and inspiration to this lazy girl. You are the most crucial creatures that this world has.

          Okay now, I do not know what to write then. I do not have any interesting or significance story to share. I just have a bad feeling of what I experienced when I ordered something online. Yes, this year is combined with balance the good and the bad. I have finished my study in an exact time, but I got a really inconvenient experience. It happened in June. So, I ordered something online from abroad. But, until now, I have not received the package yet. Even though I already got the refund fully, I just hate the fact that the package has not arrived. I just do not know it has just lost or the seller sent it to the wrong address hmmm… I do not have the idea to reorder the same item from another shop because I still can not get rid of this feeling. Okay, just forget it.

          By the way, I want to share you some songs I have been listening to lately. Yes, it was really unintentional (again) when I discovered these songs. So, these are actually not new released songs. To remind you again, I am a phlegmatic. The internet says that, a phlegmatic sometimes yearns for something. Of course, they are more than just right. You know, the hiraeth feeling. Yes, feeling that I have been struggled for. Even though it is not physically seen, these songs just simply teleport me to that place. 

           The first song is titled Too Much Too Ask by Niall Horan. Well, to be honest, I am not really a fan of One Direction, but I do like to listen to their songs. If I were asked which one is my favorite member, the answer would be Niall Horan. So, when I just unintentionally discovered his song, I with a happy feeling listened to it. 

source: twitter.com/NiallOfficial

          Other than that, during listening to this song, I noticed that the chords used in this song are that my favorite four-changing chords – F C Am G. Click the image above to listen it on youtube. I actually found and listened the acoustic version first, but then I listened to the original version. Well, in my opinion it sounds a bit good. I know it is a bit late. This song was released two years ago, but I have just known it couple days ago ehehe. Anyway, I just feel that this song reminds me of the song Let It Go by James Bay. I think it is because the sound of the guitar. Moreover, it also reminds me back to a song by Ed Sheeran titled All of the Stars. The similarity can be heard on the interlude part. Yes, the notes I think a bit similar. I just feel so enough listening to this song. I mean, I usually have to listen to those two songs I mention one by one. With this song, I can finally hear that two songs in one. Yeah, everything at once. The song is about a broken-hearted feeling. But, I listen to it not because of that for sure. Like I said before, I feel like this song brings me to that place I am yearning for. I do not even know what it is, who is in there, and why exactly it feels like that. It is just that lovely. It is likely a kind of way of escaping from reality.

          The second song I found was the acoustic version of Montana by Owl City. Well, I actually already know this song and listened to it for hundred times. But, for acoustic version, I have known it just couple months ago. It sounds as good as the original and the alternate version. Maybe it is because it is Owl City!!! Click the image below to direct you to the song I mentioned.

source: Owl City

          Yes, guys. I really recommend all Owl City’s songs! My songs library is full with his albums! It is all from the year 2008, until the latest album in 2017/18. He is so brilliantly talented for creating such a song. One reason why I love Owl City besides A Great Big World (Ian Axel and Chad King) is, I feel that Owl City perfectly draws and represents what inside my head through all of his songs. Well, it is mostly through the melodies not merely the lyrics. I mean, the lyrics are so something, but the melodies, the chords, the instruments or synth effects he chose in making the music, they are make it more artistry and artistic. By far, my favorite albums of him are Ocean Eyes (early album) and Cinematic (latest). To be specific, the songs I listen to a lot are Fireflies (of course), Vanilla Twilight, Meteor Shower, Hello Seattle, On the Wing, Back Home, My Everything, New York City, Cloud Nine, Montana (alt version), and the very very one which I love so much and makes me wondering why such a song exists… Firebird (alt version). If I were asked to rank top five best songs of him, I would pick Fireflies, Firebird, New York City, Cloud Nine, and My Everything. If it is shorted into top three, I would pick Fireflies, Firebird (alt version), and Cloud Nine. Fireflies is number one!!! I am sorry for the exclamation tag!!! But, for me, Owl City is out of this world and you should know more songs from him, not just the famous ones Fireflies and Vanilla Twilight! He is so much more of it!!!

          Okay, maybe that is all I can share with you guys in this very talkative post. To close this post, I will end this post by saying… May the rain will come sooner. These wall fans inside this house do not seem working. I am, too, craving for a drop of purity, chastity, and tranquility. To my readers, I hope God sooner makes the knot loose from the tongue and the heart. I hope too that we can get everything we need. Yes, we need, not what we want. Most of all, may God give those answers we have been looking for in the near future. Amen. Cheers!!! I love you all and thanks for the visit!!!

Trip Down Memory Lane

       Hello, everyone! What’s up? I hope you are all fine. Yes, it has been really a long time since the last post I published. Of course, this is already a new year. Okay, I am not going to write about that because it is not really new year anymore ehehe :D This month is going to come to an end, and I think this is so bad writing this down in the very late end of the month. I just do not know why. Okay, as usual, I really want to write about what has just happened. The clue is, it is still about my weakness, dealing with the past. So, if you are bored to read it, you can pass this or close the window of your browser :P *sorry. 

Well if you keep going, I really want to say thank you. Thank you for reading it and make the visitor counter keeps counting :D Okay, I’m just kidding about that. I am not writing this down for the sake of the popularity of my blog. It is for sure because I really want to write and I am starving for words. However, if you think that dealing with the past means I am going to talk about my love story, you are wrong. Well, it is not always about love, right? Anything would be possible, of course. If you are the one who think it is about childhood, congratulations, you are right!

Okay let us get it to the point. Yesterday, well not really yesterday, it actually happened just less than twelve hours ago. The time in my laptop is showing 5:42 AM, now. Yes, twelve hours ago, I got to go somewhere. Unfortunately, it was rush hours, so the map app was showing the alternative route. Again, unfortunately, it was a small road which brought huge and memorable memories. I did not hate it, but I was not ready for sure. Recollecting everything that ever happened in that tiny road, that was what it was all about. Well, it is not that tiny, but I just feel that no bus can reach that road. It is just van and motorcycle definitely. Yes, it was of course a bit different from what I had seen almost ten years ago. I could spot what has changed, yet I still could see what has not. The detail, oh god, it still looked the same. I could remember what I would have seen then after crossing one side to another. Totally, I could walk it blindfolded.

Consequently, it brought such a nostalgic moment. Yes, to repeat what has written, it might be a bit different, but I still could feel the atmosphere. Imagining my fourteen-year-old self was walking home from school, in that very late afternoon. I feel like, I really want to thank to technology for not being really super ‘magic’ in that era, so I could  really feel how it felt to walk five kilometers from school to home. It is compared to present technology which can easily hire a vehicle through your smartphone. Okay, there were many vehicles that year, but I just do not know why I decided to go home by walk. I know it is just a small thing, but it did give such an impact. Kind of thing that makes you do not want to grow old. Not because you are afraid of what comes next, but it is likely to be that, the more you grow up, the more you know ‘the momory lane’ goes really far from where you are now. Thus, it reminds me that, I could really enjoy or it still can be connected to me if only, let say ten years ago, I was not easily distracted with something that filled my life only for certain period of time. This experience makes me learn that, you have to stay present and enjoy the moment, no matter what. Why? I think you may not find the same star even though you are still staring at the same sky. Once it loses, it will never go back.

I know it physically can be seen so I cannot share the feeling with you, but I just want to tell you that it does have significant role to my soul. Its effect is like melatonin that lets you sleep well at night. It is the caffeine that gives you energy to start a day. Most of all, it is the remedy for your tired soul that is living in a hurlyburly reality. It is almost twenty four hours since I woke up. Shortly, I have not slept yet just because of this short journey. A random and an unplanned travel which brought you to another. A time travel, exactly. 

To close this post, I want to give you a note (to me as well), guys. If you had a really bad day, give your self some positive affirmations. It is something what I have believed long ago that, the bad may give sorrows, but the good does the best on recovering. Yes, if you think your day is miserable, just remember something that is so precious to be forgotten that ever happened to your life. If you do that, I believe you are going to say “I love my life.” I have been doing this for the past five years, and it really changes me on how I appreciate things. Such affirmation makes me believe and make me fully grateful. It is the one that keeps me saying to myself, “I love my life for the good and the bad!” 

Thank you for the visit, guys! Do not forget to stay present! Happiness is a choice, so choose what you want today! We do always have options. I love you! May God bless us in every step of our ways!