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New York.
I don't know why I really really really really want to be there, especially Queens and Manhattan. Everybody seems so famous and rich there. Live my life with a strange people in a *number one* country in the whole world. Working in this *number one* country, I think we'll get a fantastic salary. Ha ha ha ha . . . . . (it depends on your skills, exactly).

But I don't know how to get there. It'll need much of money. Money to buy the plane ticket, to live your life, and shopppppppppppiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnggggggggg to buy the unique souvenirs from this country. This last reason for shopaholic only. Hahaha, and I'm not one of it. Yeah, thank god!

So many things that make me confused about the majors at the university later. I wanna be an architect/ engineer, dance teacher, astronaut. But, I'm not interested in medical. I don't know why, I hate it. But, I think I like being a dentist. :D

I heard and saw a quote: "Work in passion" So you'll feel that you're not going to work. But, you're going to have fun.

But, most of all I fell in love with dance and music since I was 7th years old. You know that I can't live without a piano, and I'll be a crazy girl if I see one in front of me. And, I'll do the same if I see someone's doing a traditional dance. . .
But, in other side, I want to be like my father, an architect. Who works in some building/office. Go to office at 9 a.m and go home at 5 or 7 p.m. Yeah, such a daily routine activities. Be a musician and dance teacher. . . I don't know what's the schedule. But, I think it'll be busier than an architect. Hahaha *confused -_______-
But, be a dance teacher is more fun and I'll be enjoying this job in the future.

About the future. I don't know what we'll be. .him and I. . .
But, I'll never forget about the "high school moment". And, I'll be the first girl in this world who say "thank you" to god. Because he gave me much of great, best, sweet, and unforgettable memories in my life.

Seeing he smiles at me is more than a best gift I've ever had. . .

But, God, Can I hold his hand just one more time? Please. . .
I'm sure it'll be the hardest goodbye in my life
I don't think to find someone like him, 'cause I still believe that there's no one like him. . .
I love him, and I want to go to NY. I hope someday I will say. . . "NY, I'm coming!" and "I receive my scholarship to study in USA" Amen.

Y e s,  I   L O V E   H I M. . .

First Post

well, It's 2013 already. And, this is the first post in 2013 ^_^

And 2012 was the best year for me even though at the end I got a bad news. I guess you know it.

I spent new year eve with the fams and just played Uno at home, and a little BBQ party with the neighbor. HAHA!


Ok, and another bad news for me and all the westlifers around the world is Westlife splitted up. But the best news is the Farewell DVD is number one in UK!
Their last concert was only in Croke Park, Dublin, Ireland. They didn't held a world tour.
And this year, Mark Feehily and Shane Filan will realease their solo album on their first solo career. But, I don't know for sure what's the date they will realease it. Just be patient to wait it.

Ok, My westlife favorite song is still "Something Right". Last month I was searching for the Lighthouse video on the Youtube. While I was searching, I saw a video named "The Making of Something Right" yeah, it means behind the scene of Something Right.

And as it my favorite song, I (happily) opened it. And, you know what? the Youtube said:
"Sorry, this media is unavailable in your country"
What is it like? It's like a doomsday, exactly.
What happen with my country? Why they didn't give permission to my country? Was there something wrong?

Don't you know that I really love that song and really want to see the behind the scene? I hope Sony BMG will fix it soon.

Let's move to other topic.

You know it's a new year. With a hello and goodbye. Let's say hello to our new junior students who will study in our school, and we'll say goodbye to our seniors.

Goodbye to our seniors. There will be a goodbye. And I'm not ready to say goodbye to him. I don't know what it's like, but I think I'm gonna cry.

And about my promise to say all the truth to him, I guess I won't do. There's a girl who standing next to him, now. And, it's impossible. I don't wanna broke their relationship just because my promise last year. Let them enjoy their romance. They deserve it.

Will I get a good boy instead of him? I'm not sure, and I don't think to find another one. I still wanna survive this feeling. But, sooner or later I'll get a choose.

One year ago, I've been waiting for him. Doing something good, something useful, studied hard to get science class and rangking top five, joined in new extracurricular. Joined the choir and marching band, and because of him I chose to joined the Organization of school. And, I chosen as one of the candidate. But I didn't win the election. I did this because he might be interest in me. But, God has a plan. He was looking for another girl. I still remember how I met him. When and where. How we shared every moment. How he treated me. How he gave me the unexpected moment, and how he held me in his arms on my birthday.

Forget it.


Ok, about new year. My first dream in 2013 is.. I dreamed about him. He was standing next to me, and smile. And it was in the airport. I don't know what it means. But. I hope it's a good sign. Maybe it's a sign that I will go to USA. HAHA! lol :D. By the way about airport, I'm still wondering about the location of Soekarno-Hatta International Airport. On the map, it's located on Tangerang. But, if you look around the airport when you will leave the airport there's a big banner written "Welcome to Jakarta" ohyeah, what the hell? It made me confused. Which one the right answer? I think you are being confused, too. hehehe.


Happy New Year 2013. May this year will bring us to the best. And, may our dreams come true. I love you and I love him.