“Did you enjoy singing backup?” said Caitlyn to Mitchie. Yeah, I think that Camp Rock’s dialogue is similar enough to the situation I am getting in. Mitchie is competent in singing, but her heart is not into the place she is in. As you already know that I am graduated now. The feeling of relief is there, yet the confusion as well. Because sometimes, there are some circumstances that force you to do something not your heart desire. I think that becomes the reason why some things did not work out because the heart and soul are not into it. I am sorry to make it not to the point. I just want to fill the blank… okay, I am just kidding.
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Of all the things we questioned, can we answer it with another point of view? I mean, let’s take an example. One might answer those questions with “because you’re lazy,” or “because you’re not fully accepting it,” or “because you’re not trying to do with sincere heart.” In my world, I would say “what if it wasn’t meant to be?” I know that would sound shallow because I directly cut it to the core. But that answer can be so meaningful if we can think about it a little deeper. Just take another allegory. You are the actor of a TV series. If the director said you will not appear in some episodes, it never happens. You will never be there. You are playing it, I know. But, if the director keeps saying no, what would you do? The problem then keeps going. How do you know that you will not be part of that episodes if no one tells you? I think by keep trying, sooner or later you will find it.
It just reminds me of my friend who said that I gave up on my previous college. Let me take you back to years when this was going. That was the thing I love the most. I had been waiting for that for almost eleven years. However, something did happen in the last minute. I kept on going though I knew and I believed that would not go well. After so many considerations, I finally quit college. Well, that might be seen as giving up. But once again, in my point of view, it is because, in the middle of the journey I found some factors. Those became the reasons why I did not continue while it was not few who believed I was a bit capable of doing it. Now, with the thing I achieved better, can I just say that it is fate?
It just reminds me of my friend who said that I gave up on my previous college. Let me take you back to years when this was going. That was the thing I love the most. I had been waiting for that for almost eleven years. However, something did happen in the last minute. I kept on going though I knew and I believed that would not go well. After so many considerations, I finally quit college. Well, that might be seen as giving up. But once again, in my point of view, it is because, in the middle of the journey I found some factors. Those became the reasons why I did not continue while it was not few who believed I was a bit capable of doing it. Now, with the thing I achieved better, can I just say that it is fate?
So here we are. If you are now asking, what is the point of all of this shit I write, I would say it is all about finding what you are destined to be. I am holding a blank map and I am on the T-intersection, now. Even though sometimes I ask myself with these questions “what if,” or “would it be good or worse if I go there instead of there.” So, now, knowing that you are not fully in that series, why not try to find another role? Okay, it is so hard for me to say to the point. I… have not gotten my dream job. I even forget what it is. Okay, let’s eliminate that ‘dream.’ Now we have ‘job.’ A half of me feel like I have to find it. On the other hand, the rest feels like I have to take another thing I want. Well, to be honest, 80% of my heart, soul and thought are not into it. That sometimes makes me think that is why I have not gotten it yet. Other than that, it does not close my thought to the answer “maybe it definitely was not meant to be.” Some say maybe this is because I do not want to change my life cycle. In my opinion, “what if this is part of the story?” or “what if history wants to repeat itself?” It is still hard to convey what I actually want to say. But with the pictures I inserted in this post, I think it is well delivered :)
Okay, now this part is the end of this post. It is not me if I did not put at least some optimistic ideas. One thing we have to be sure is, even though you are not achieving what you really want, at some point, everything is going for the sake of our goodness. It inevitably leads me to a statement that, not every “acceptance” will be good and not every “rejection” means bad. There will be light at the end of the tunnel. One more from me, if it is meant to be, it will be. But, if it was not, it never was. Okay, I am sorry. The last one is from Selena Gomez. LOL :D
Stay safe and stay healthy, guys. I hope this hard times will be over sooner. I cannot wait to go outside and travel around this city all day long! 💙
Stay safe and stay healthy, guys. I hope this hard times will be over sooner. I cannot wait to go outside and travel around this city all day long! 💙
