Hi, Bloggy!!! It's BEEN a long time since the last post I published, of course. I actually wanted to post some physical thoughts to this blog of mine, but as usual, I did consider everything. A lot. So, I decided not to share that kind of thoughts. I mean, not everyone will accept or at least is in the same view.
This year has been the hardest one ever. I think it affected not just me, but people in this whole world. Some still might have felt sparks, but some others have not. However, that does not become the reason that we cannot see the good side. Okay, as usual, this is not me if I am not putting some positive affirmations alike to my post. I am sorry, I do this a lot because my role model is Mahatma Gandhi. Okay, next.
People come and go. We do know that. That is exactly how the world works. Natural law. Okay, I am here not trying to be a philosopher. The life that has been given to me, it forces me to impersonate any one of them. I do question everything, but only to myself. If only I could ask someone whom I know well about it, I would do.
Okay, if I took a look at it a little closer, I actually already found the answer of my questions. Yes, the answer is natural law. However, it takes a almost a year for me to finally accept this law and what has been written to me since long ago. One of proverbs even says that time almost heals everything, but I do not think it applies on me (I'm sorry 😐). Maybe it will, and again, it is just a matter of time (oh well, 'time'). Yeah, I think you know where this is going. I am talking about losing.
I was, at first, thinking that 2014 was the year of biggest change that has ever happened to me. I was wrong. I want to say that this is the year of changing. For once, this pain of loss almost drove me insane like never before. Thankfully, I am still sober enough to face this truth. I am so blessed that this 'experience' has shaped me to be a much better version of me (okay, in my opinion). I am so lucky enough as well that this phase of my life really keeps me away from attached too much to worldly life. I am not saying I am not sad, but losing the one who opened your eyes how to live life sincerely, makes me want to make 'the legacy' lives on. I really want to spread to the world the noble value this person taught me. So that the world will be less filled with hatred.
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Before I end this post, I really want to say this thing, my dear. We might have to use logic and think rationally. However, there are some particular things that cannot be processed with common sense. Some things that only work when you think intuitively. I am saying this not because I am an INFP which is exactly an intuitive person. Even before I knew this MBTI theory, I have used intuition more than my common sense — yes, since I was four years old. Okay, if you did not get what I mean by saying think intuitively, here it is the explanation.
“When you're intuitive but unaware of it, your intuition might externalize itself, showing up as "signs from the Universe" that leave you in awe. It's almost as if intuition tries to get your attention internally first, but if you're not paying attention, your intuition will grab you by the outside world and shake you until you're listening.” — mindbodygreen.com
Yes, it sounds a bit weird, but I just cannot let you go not knowing that I do believe in that 'signs from the Universe'. For once I thought it was just my 'unrealistic thoughts', but the last time I ignored it, I did feel regret. Regretting of why I kept ignoring that 'signs' which could let me at least 'prepare' myself for what will happen next.
It is going to be 2021, but I am still processing 2020. Thank you, 2020. You have been the greatest year I have been through so far. I have found the wonderful teacher, and so I wish you too, my lovely reader. Yes, it is 2020. May the new year will bring much better changes for all of us.
“Why does the star shine?
Mengapa bintang bersinar?
Why does the river flow?
Mengapa air mengalir?
Why is the world spinning?”
Mengapa dunia berputar?
-Sherina, Lihatlah Lebih Dekat
