Monday, February 06, 2017

January

Hi, bloggy! What's up? It is already a new year. Well I named it as January because I want to tell you everything that has happened in this month.

Yes, I am finally done with the final exam and….. I got a great score OMG! Actually my previous score is better than the recent semester πŸ˜† You know the feeling when you got something beyond your expectation, right? Hehehe. Not to show off, but just want to tell you that the recent semester was so insane. The struggle was so real. There was one subject that I really had a doubt at when I input it to the form. I had known it that the subject would have been the hardest one ever and I was right. The class schedules were also the reason why the semester was a challenge, because it broke my sleeping time. Oh yes, there was a class on Saturday. Yes that means I only had a day to take a rest. But the fact that I finally can finish and pass that so-boring and exhausting subject. By the way, I feel honored because one of my lecturer trusted me and two of my friends to help her finishing her work, and… I got paid hehehe. This was the first time I helped my own lecturer and got paid. Okay let us move to another topic.

I want to tell you that I found a song, not found it actually. The real story was when I was listening to a song on Spotify, suddenly the suggested song played, it is called 'Echo' by Jason Walker. I usually skip the suggested song, but I listened to it until the end of the song because of the catchy melodies and of course the chord progression. If you know that, I really love a song that contains Csus2-G-Em-Dsus4 chord progression, so when the first time the song was playing I knew that I would not skip it. The song itself told about a person who is wondering why and where everybody is, in another word it is kind of desperate song. Yes it is. I think this is the most desperate song ever. Actually this song is not a song that can express myself, because I hate being so melancholic though I can feel the emotions in this song. But I think it is good enough to be your lullaby :) You can click the photo below to listen on YouTube.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=pxpLxb5jHO0 
Photo: genius.com

Anyway, about the song that I mentioned on my previous post, a song which reminds me about him or I usually call it as a soundtrack of my romance hehehe 😁 it is called 'I Won't Give Up' by Jason Mraz. I think you guys know it because it is a famous song. I often found that this song is played on some local radio stations, thus makes me smile like I am the happiest person in the world. Click the photo to listen the song on YouTube. Anyway, I like the cover of this song that is done by Christina Grimmie, click here to listen and watch the video.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=TdN5GyTl8K0 
Photo: bestfan.com



Wait, I almost forget. At the first week of this month, I watched a drama performance. The drama was called 'Death of a Salesman', it was adopted from Arthur Miller's work with the same title. It was a bit different than any dramas that I have watched before. I usually watch a drama that using our/my native language, but in this drama they were using English, so I had to pay more attention to hear what they were saying so I could understand the plot because I am not good enough at listening to English conversation.

Finally, the next topic is… him. Sorry. But I have to put him in this post. Why? Because this is my blog. Okay forget it. Nothing changes. Because I am afraid to go further. Rejection is still the reason why I am still standing here. But I am happy with the situation I am getting in. I mean, just seeing him in a distance, bumping to one another in the most-famous intersection in campus without saying anything, getting caught when I look at him, being trapped inside the same traffic light, these are like a remedy even though when these things happened I felt like I was a t-rex having a stroke, I mean it was scared me to death omg but I loved it hehehe πŸ˜… but still my biggest will is talk to him.

Photo: Pinterest.com

Okay I think that is enough for this post. It seems like it is a long post. Maybe it is kind of a revenge because I could not post anything in the last two months that is caused by the tight schedules. Do not ever get bored to visit this blog of mine. Have a fabulous day, everyone! ☺

Saturday, December 10, 2016

Will You Deny?

When the first time you stepped your feet on the college, what was your reason for going to college? But when the romance comes, would it be another reason for you? So, which favors of God will you deny? When you were facing in front of a perfectly good and inspiring person, all you can do was just sitting in that chair and your heartbeat was about to explode. It was funny. It was a rare thing. It was a gift. It was the thing which created the smile on your face. Why do I call it so? Because that just happened beyond my control and expectation of course. Wait, there was a stupid part. This post is not only about beautiful thing that happened to me, but also the stupid thing. That is when I threw the chance away while I had been waiting for it to come. I should have thanked him. But I was so afraid of being rejected that is why I was so reluctant to say that.

How wonderful it is when there is a person who brings so much colors to your life. A person who is one of the reasons why you are so excited for going to college. A person who brings inspiration and good influence to you, not for changing who you really are but to make yourself better. Even being so grateful to God is not enough. I know it is so hard for us especially for us who have no self-believe to express what is inside our heart straight to the person whom we adore. But don't worry, you are not alone! Hehehe 😁 Just set it free. If it yours, it will come to you even when you are not asking.

Thank you for the visit :) Have a wonderful day!

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Sunday, November 20, 2016

Won't Stop Running Chords by A great Big World

Hi, Rockstars! Finally I can figure out the chords of this inspiring song. I did this because I couldn't find the chords on google or did I miss it? Hehe. It took two months for me to find out the chords especially the bridge part. I hope it sounds fit to the original version. You can change D# with D#sus2 second inversion and change F with Fsus4 if you want. Thank you for the visit!

D#      A#
Facing forward
Gm
Lights out
F
 I won't stop running
D#       A#
 Falling backwards
Gm
 Hands tied
F
 I won't stop running
D#        A#
 I'll take another sunrise
Gm                       F
 Another hand to hold tight
                 D#     A#
 This isn't over
                                                                             A#
 I am way too young and I won't stop running
D#                                              A#
I don't know how much longer I can fake it
                Gm        F
 That it's all alright, that I can do this alone
D#                           A#
 And I know that life is what you make it
              Gm              F
 But it's hard to see stars when you're always caught in the folds
D#                          A#
 Every night in my mind it's a fight
         Gm              F
 But I won't stop dreaming
                            D#   A#
 'Cause this isn't over
                  Gm    F
 It's never over

 Facing forward
 Lights out
 I won't stop running
 Falling backwards
 Hands tied
 I won't stop running
 I'll take another sunrise
 Another hand to hold tight
 This isn't over
 I am way too young and I won't stop running

D#                                          A#
 I'd rather be the one that starts the fire
                Gm         F
 Than to shut my mouth and be the one who gets burned
D#                              A#                              
 Yeah "it is what it is," but I wanna go higher
Gm                              F
 'Cause I felt it once before

 I believe the tables will turn
D#                                       A#
 I wanna love and be the one who is loved
         Gm                         F
 No I won't stop dreaming
                             D#    A#
 'Cause this isn't over
                 Gm   F
 It's never over

 Facing forward
 Lights out
 I won't stop running
 Falling backwards
 Hands tied
 I won't stop running
 I'll take another sunrise
 Another hand to hold tight
 This isn't over
 I am way too young and I won't stop running

C
 How do you explain it?
        Dm                     D#      
 For seven years I made it through the falls
        F            Gm
 I'm living it all
F              Gm
 Living it all

C
 I'm tearing off the labels
         Dm                  D#          
 And suddenly I'm able, scaling walls
        F           Gm
 I'm living it all

 Living it all
                                        Fsus4
 And I won't stop running

Thursday, September 29, 2016

Secret Admirer

Secret admirer. What do you think about it?  What goes through your mind when you see this words? Have you ever imagined how does it feel to be a secret admirer? One more question, have you become a secret admirer?

Here are the explanations. Wait, it will be explained from my point of view.

Secret admirer is a condition when I am becoming a fan of someone but I cannot truly express it straight to the person that I have been being a fan of. Thing that I always do is watch them from a far and be grateful for that even though it is from a far.

We know and especially myself that it must be very inconvenient for those whom we adored. But what should we do when all we can do is watch them walking around or see them making time with their friends? Even face to face with them unexpectedly is like a bonus. It is like you ask God that you want to see him in one day and up there He is saying 'here you go, I want to see you smile today'. I believe if that thing happens to you, you cannot thank enough to God and your face is beautifully full of smile all day long. You will feel like that is your best day ever even much better than your sweet-seventeen-birthday party.

I know it is kind of hard to us as a secret admirer, because we hardly wait for the right time to come to us to have a conversation with them. But when the time is right, we just throw the chance away because the fear is stronger than our bravery. It is like your body does not own this muscles anymore and your backbone feels like they do not inhabit its place anymore.

So for you, someone whom I adored, I am here not for ruining your life, but I do want an interaction between you and me. Since I am unlike the others who can bravely start a conversation, I wish you would understand how it feels for me standing and waiting for some miracles come to us. Even just saying 'Hi or Hello' to you is my biggest dream. Because I believe from that little word everything begins. The hardest thing ever is, it is still continuing day by day, month by month and even year by year.

One thing from me: Keep struggling because in the end you will find that it is all worth the wait.

Thank you for visiting this blog. May God bless you all!

Wednesday, September 07, 2016

Question Tag.

How can I not think about it when I tried to forget him but the song which reminds me of him suddenly played on the radio in the car while the weather was rainy. Coincidence? Well everything happens for a reason and I haven't found the reason yet.

This is saddening. I always want to say something. I've never been so frustrated like this before. And if I could, I would tell him he drives me crazy more than anyone's ever been. It's like he is so mysterious. Like we both pay attention to each other but none of us starts a conversation. Is it just me or does it really happen? Like he is one of the things that appears in my mind in the bus on my way home and every night you can't sleep and in your obscure room, you start staring at the ceiling and your thoughts collide thinking about "what is it all about?" "does he do the same like me thinking about this mystery?" or just waiting for an answer coming to your life and answers all of your questions.

Well do I seem like I'm starving of love? I guess not. Because I get it from friends and my family too even my neighbors and YES MY LOVELY CATS. But It's kinda different, I mean, you really can't tell every single thing to your friends or family for several times, I mean, hey girl, somebody is not born to hear all of your problems. And I think somebody like me needs someone who really bonds to myself. I mean, I,ve found it but seems like it always ends up in friend zone. Maybe that's the reason why I made this blog because I can totally write everything I want to share and don't ever need to know who read every post that I made in this blog. But like I said before, IT IS DIFFERENT. I just don't know how to explain it but it's just it is.

Well now, I'm just curious about what's gonna happen next. Like if finally I can talk to him, I will soon update to this blog of mine. Maybe it's none of your business or you think that this is just nonsense but this is not "diary of a basic girl" if I don't write something about what happened to me or around. Because it's made for what it is supposed to be. Lol.

Well maybe for certain time, I have to lay in bed or just sit in the terrace with my cats and tell all my story to them while I stroke their fur until they fall asleep with their calming snore. Or just tell the starry night about the beautiful yet mysterious things that have just happened to me.

Sorry for posting about my weird feeling, again. And I still don't know why I named this post as Question Tag, I'm so deeply confused. But believe me, this thing takes so much energy and to be honest, I've written this post from 1:52 AM until this post published. Thank you for visiting this super basic blog. Hope you will always be in good mood and be healthy! :)