Stuck?

Am I wrong if I can't throw my memories away? I mean, stuck in it for almost five years. You can't forget every little things that you've been through. I did this because it makes me feel better rather than I remember that high school moment in head, my junior high school moments are better than the latest ones. Why? When you took a fun together with your friends, I almost did it everyday, spent my times doing dvd marathon with my friends, laughing, screaming and singing along loudly in the house, playing crazy things around the complex and then suddenly met my ‘weird’ teacher. When there's extreme traffic when you went  home, there's an empty way on the other side, I just laid down on that way with my friends and make crazy poses while all the drivers stared at us with “are you crazy” face. And while we're waiting for bus on bus shelter, we started to screaming whenever cars, motorcycle or whoever crossed the freeway. Stayed up late until 3am just wanted to watch my tv series: Prison Break. Oh God, I never get that on my senior high school moments. I mean, I never got positve energy whenever I remember that high school moments than the junior ones.

Playing ‘Owl City’ song in the morning after you went from the market. Opening this blog, writting unimportant things to this blog of mine, opening facebook, twitter, and everything related to media social.

Writting a letter to my crush, and almost doing it whenever I found new ones. But at the end no one I wanna be with, I mean “hey, I like you, but I don't wanna have a relationship with you” because I thought, I was under 18. Does it make sense? I think yes.

Still Westlife song is the biggest thing that filled my jhs moments, and also Camp Rock/ disney song. But the only thing that reminds me with that is “Something Right” by Westlife. I played it when I was in 8th grade. The first time I was being obsessed with NY. And that song really makes me like I have an alarm. When you feel down or lazy to do something and I play this song it's like “Hey, NY is one step ahead!” You never know how much I wanna be there, the city that never sleep, city light, everybody seems so famous. 

I don't know how long I should wait for it, but I believe in myself that someday I can make it true. When my aunty told me how wonderful it was to be there, OMG I felt like she tried to make me envy hahahaha. She said that was amazing to be there, living your life in a small flat, and when you look at your down, you see that Central Park bridge, Yellow cab. How it felt when you for the first time stepped on the JFK airport, you'd feel like you're a superstar, looking at your around, they were all strangers!!! Oh God, I think she didn't realize when she was telling me about that my heart was beating, and playing my imagination with that. 'Cause I wrote some imagination story how it will be to be there and that's definitely close enough to her story, though I wrote that post almost four years ago, and she just told me maybe three months ago. Oh God, is it a sign? Hahaha. And she gave me some tips if someday you have a plan to live your life there. Yeah, you never know how much I'm so obsessed with this city. If you may ask me “what are you gonna do if you're there?” Just a simple answer “I want to take an experience in that city, maybe find a work or find a schoolarship to study at the one of the famous school around there. Like, Martha Graham DC or Juilliard School.

Okay, I think that's enough for me telling you about, again NY. The shockest thing ever is my cousin is in there right now! And I can't deny how much I hate that. Because if she can do it why I can't?

Let's make it real. There's a will, there's a way. See you soon on my next post. Thank you for reading or just visiting to this blog of mine. May the luck be ever in you! And me too! Amen. 💙🗽💙🗽💙🗽💙🗽

There's a different between you stuck in the moment and when you look at your past to make a better you today.